Confession Time
Friends, I’ve been hiding in a hole a bit.
I took a break from the Internet for a few days because I wanted to and needed to. And then I kind of didn’t want to come back to it. Ever.
I guess I’m going through a bit of an introspective period. Trying to figure things out. Trying to sort out some emotions. Trying to put things in their proper place and gain the proper perspective. Trying to decide which of my writing projects are worth bothering with, which of the ones I’ve stashed away from daylight should be brought out for some fresh air, and which just need to be scrapped. Trying to decide if I’m any kind of writer at all. Trying to decide exactly what career path I’m trying to create for myself and why none of the potentials seem to be gaining any momentum. Trying to figure out why the world is speeding ahead at full steam and I’m kind of stuck in the station.
I’m also still working through this latest bout of RA flare and trying to get my body to do what it is supposed to. It’s not cooperating. And that has me scared a bit about whether it means this is just a bad flare that needs help or whether it means I’ve hit a progressive stage. I’m getting very close to the point at which my doc says it’s time to call. I’ve never had to call before and I don’t want to now.
And then there’s regular life – the Hub, the Kidzilla, the Rotten Cats, chores, laundry, paperwork, holidays, every day life…
So I haven’t been around to read or leave comments very much. I haven’t entered conversations much. I haven’t responded to your chats or games. I’m trying to catch up because I don’t want to miss a word of what you have to say, but I’m afraid I may have to just hit that “mark all as read” button and start from scratch. It’s not personal; it’s just overwhelming.
So I’m just kind of here trying to figure things out.That’s all.
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Ohhh, my friend! I’m so sorry your RA is causing so much trouble! Bad, bad RA! I hate it that something makes you feel so badly that you can’t even read or write. Saying a prayer for you that this is just a bad spell and not a new stage. Feel better soon!
I heart you, Dyanne. Thanks. Yeah, this is a pretty nasty flare and I’m pretty damn tired of it. Thanks for the prayers – that certainly can’t hurt!
I know what you mean when you say you feel like the world is speeding ahead and you’re left at the station. I feel the same.
I hope you come out from under the bed soon. I’m sending you a virtual hug (as long as it doesn’t hurt you) xx
Thanks for the virtual hug, Katie. Hugs are OK any time, even if they hurt a bit. 🙂
It is perfectly okay not to keep up with everyone. I don’t expect anyone to read each and every post I write. I am quite a blog addict after all. And I can’t keep up with others either. If it feels like a chore, take a break and relax. Blog burnout is a thing. I’d rather have you reading a post once or twice a month, than none at all. (Hugs)
I do have your A to Z of blogging ones saved – read a bunch, then didn’t finish – because those I am definitely going to finish. So much good info in there! And thanks for the hugs. I’m collecting a bunch of those today!
*hugs* I hope you don’t have to call. Sending prayers xo
Thank you so very much. I hope so, too. And you know I”m bouncing those right back in your direction, too. XO
If you need a break, you need a break.
Hopefully the RA – monster will let you of the hook soon.
*hugshugshugs*
I’m trying not to speak too much of the RA monster today because it just might be calming down…shhh…
And thanks for all those hugs! 🙂
Taking a break when you need it is a smart thing to do. 🙂
Here’s to less pain and good days.
I’ll clink my smoothie glass to that, Michelle!
Sorry you haven’t been feeling well.
And then there’s regular, everyday life.
🙂
Blogging shouldn’t be a chore, just one more thing to get done. If it is, probably means a break or at least cutting back is necessary. It’s something that can seem like a chore, push you away and then pull you back in, very next second.
I enjoy your posts, but your health is most important.
Take care of yourself.
Thanks, Kerry. Yeah, not feeling well has a way of making everything else look pretty grim. Off to make my nighttime smoothie.
Take all the time you need. I applaud that you realize you need that break. It is so very healthy. And it’s okay because you ARE taking care of you and the basics in life – health, home, family. When things get rough, the survival instinct places what is important in the forefront. We’re here for you. Oh, and by the way, you CAN write.
Thanks, Val. I do think a return to the most basic needs was – is – a good idea.
I am going to be horribly unoriginal and say ‘ditto’ to all the fabulous comments above.
Also, I may send you some baby panda videos, ’cause who can’t smile watching those little cuties??
Well by now we’ve chatted other places today. I saw the pandas. They were pretty funny.
And for the record, I often don’t know what else to say but “ditto” when others have said the same good things I would say. It’s OK. 🙂
Do you know that I was JUST thinking about you yesterday? I kinda took a break too- and honestly have been in a similar place as you! Feeling rotten physically and drained emotionally… not in the game at all. Not wanting to be. No inspiration or desire whatsoever…
I’m praying for you. Praying for your RA to heal, praying for your mind and heart to find a clear path to your dreams and your gifts. You have many, one of which is writing my dear friend.
I’m finding it’s okay to have periods of blah. Of nothing. As much as I hate to let things ‘go’ and feel the overwhelming need to ‘apologize’ or ‘catch up on EVERYONE’… it is entirely impossible to keep up sometimes. Especially when you feel like crap.
Rest. Refuel. Restore. Heal.
I’m so sorry you are feeling rotten, Chris. I see your words and yup, that’s how I’ve been feeling…
So we’ll continue to pray for each other for all of the reasons we need it. Let’s get past the blah. Maybe spring will help? I sure am glad to see the snow piles GONE around here.
I’m going to finish answering all of the lovely and loving comments here from my dear friends and then I’m going to go rest.
As long as you show up every once in a while to let us know how you are doing, take as long of a break as you need. We aren’t your friends because you read every one of our blog posts. I am so very sorry your RA is acting up so terribly. I will be praying for you. For your health both physically and mentally. The unknown is the worst.
Christine, this is one of the nicest things I’ve read here today and it’s for so many reasons you don’t even know…”we aren’t your friends because you read every one of our blog posts.” That was like a great big thing for me.
The RA is a real pain, no pun intended. I may be turning a positive corner. Thanks for the prayers – keep ’em coming!
Hey, that’s totally normal! Take all the time you need and give yourself room to breathe. I need to do that sometimes, too. We’ll be here if you need us.
Thanks, Kitch. I know you get it. Too much input, I think, plus the RA flare is just…too much. 😀
I hope you start feeling better soon. There is nothing wrong with taking a break and if you need permission to hit that “mark all as read” button (you don’t really), I am giving it to you right now. It is okay and important to take breaks. I do hope you don’t disappear though as I really enjoy your blog.
Aw, thanks, Jean. I love yours, too, and I quite enjoy your small project day posts. Small projects I can do! I think I’ve figured out why I haven’t been taking a break – I’m going to think on it a bit.
Ouch. I am sorry about the RA flare up. Sending you jumbo hugs and fervent wishes that it tamps down. Quickly.
Thanks, Kelly. I think I may be turning a good corner. Starting to feel some improvement – hooray! Here’s hoping it’s good.
Me too . . . Hugs & prayers.
I know, you too. 🙂
It would take a modern day miracle to be able to keep up with it all. I know how you feel though. I keep tabs open all day long of all the posts I want to read and get back to them when I can. As for social media….yikes. Sometimes you have to step off the merry go round. Everybody is usually still around when you step back on. You do what you need to do. That’s important.
I do the open tab thing – lately the number of open tabs was just overwhelming. And yes, the social media is much like a merry-go-round. I only have so much time I can be on there before it’s like a black hole!
Thanks for your wise words.
Taking a break before you achieve burn out is always good. I want a break, too, but I can’t right now. Relax some for me.
Just breathe.
OK, deal.
While it sucks to call, it’s great if it can help you feel better now….believe me…not a caller…but…I do so hope you haven’t hit a progressive stage….the only place to be progressive is thinking and you got that covered. Feel better…dump your mailbox…no worries. …move in your own time….xo I/z/L
I’ve been pumping the superfoods, to use buzz word. Anybody who thinks diet isn’t tied to overall health isn’t paying attention. I know this. I practice this. Bad habits get the best of us. I feel like a walking produce section right now, but I may just be feeling somewhat better.
Been there, done that. Don’t be too hard on yourself. It’s next to impossible to keep up with it ALL. I’ve missed you on Pinterest, but I TOTALLY get it! You absolutely must take care of your health and your family first. If your body says rest, you listen!
Oh Pinterest…my red-headed stepchild right now! I miss Pinterest, but that one falls last for sure.
I think I’m starting to feel some improvement. This is god-awful slow this time. It’s absolutely gorgeous here today, though, and that is good for the spirits. My first instinct this morning was “mountain” but the Hub’s ankle is not healed well and my body is not quite up to it. Plus karate class this morning for Zilla, so we’re going to opt for a simpler walk around here today instead. And there will be a nap. Because naps.
Well, now I’m feeling like shit for just now showing up. So much has been on hold this week for me because it’s Spring Break. I am just this evening sitting down to catch up on blogs, and I see I have missed quite a bit from not just you. I’m not letting you go entirely, but I’ll give you some space. 🙂
Oh my gosh, don’t! I know you have Spring Break and you were away, too, so I figured we’d catch up when things calm down. You’ve missed very little from me outside of this post, I promise. We’ll chat later – text me whenever.
Oh, and I’ve marked a ton a read this wee. Don’t fret that.
I’m sorting through, saving things I don’t want to miss, marking things read, etc.
Ugh, week.
Yeah. And it was miserable and muggy and rainy here all week, too. Does not help the arthritis part at all! Or the mood. I love rainy days, but five in a row? Too many. Today it’s gorgeous and sunny, though, so that’s good.
Just remember all of THIS out in the big virtual world is meant to enhance life. Pull back and take care of yourself all that you need. I have no personal experience with RA but everything that I read leads me to believe it is wicked. Peace and comfort to you.
RA has its wicked moments, May. I think I’m more annoyed at this because I don’t usually have much trouble with mine. Bad spell right now. Peace and comfort…I like that. Thank you, friend! 🙂
Hope you feel better soon.
Thanks, Carin!
I just wanted to come by and check in on you, dear friend!! I was thinking about you tonight and praying for you…
I do hope you are feeling better? MWUAH!! Update me only if and when you can, sweetie.
Aw, thanks, Chris. I will check in with you later tonight or tomorrow morning, OK?
I feel for you. I’ve gone through it too. About a year back I took a month off writing and just didn’t feel like coming back. Eventually I did though and now I love writing even more. I think of it as a rite of passage. Most writers take some time away to really think about what they want to do. You start to take stock of what’s important and what’s not. Don’t feel bad about leaving some things off – figuring things out is important.
Thanks, Steve – that’s really helpful to know.