Ten Things of Thankful – I Don’t Wanna Edition

November 3, 2013 Off By Lisa

I haven’t posted much this week at all.

OK, I haven’t posted anything, really, unless you count the Soup of the Week and the Rotten Cats’ Halloween greeting.

It’s been a lousy week. Period. The details are irrelevant. Nobody wants to hear me whine – including me. So by the time Friday rolled around and it was time to think about doing my Ten Things of Thankful reflecting…well, I wasn’t feeling very thankful at all.

In fact, I’ve been feeling rather crankful. But the nice voice in my brain said “Do it. You have lots to be thankful for, really, even if you have had a lousy week.” And every time that happened, the cranky whiny brat voice inside my brain said, “I don’t wanna.”

So I didn’t.

But I feel like if I don’t try to be a grown-up about the whole thing, there will be no hope for positive in the week to come.

And so, albeit grudgingly, I have the following to be thankful for this week…

1. Kidzilla’s behavior in church this morning was pretty darn good. This is huge. I have enough trouble sitting still for an hour and staying focused and I’m 43 with a whole lot more experience managing my ADHD than Zilla has. She’s five and is only just beginning to figure herself out. So I’m calling today a win.

2. In fact, Zilla’s been making some positive strides in the behavior department. Is every area improving? No. Is every area perfect? Not by a long shot. But we have a whole bunch of small victories and we’re capitalizing on them.

3. A BFF who knows exactly how to talk me down from the proverbial ledge when my stress level at work has hit tilt. Sometimes you just gotta bounce your s**t off of someone else and she generally doesn’t mind.

4. A Fab Hub who knows exactly when to try to talk some sense into me and exactly when to shut his mouth and let me be when my stress level at work has hit tilt and I haven’t adequately decompressed and left it behind and bring my foulness home. He puts up with me way more than I deserve.

5. Rotten Cats who somehow seem to understand that I am at Stress Level Tilt and wisely stay out from underfoot. And then also snuggle up to my feet at just the right moment to offer a little comfort.

6. A Kidzilla who just by entering the room makes me remember that I really have to check that foul mood at the door. All she wants at the end of the day is some Mommy-Zilla time and I’m thankful that she has the power to make me forget all the crap – at least for a few hours.

7. A BFF and a Fab Hub who understand the end of marking period deadline thing well enough to know that it is wise to encourage me to push through my bad humor, headache, and I-hate-how-dark-it-is-at-five-o’clock lethargy and get at least one more task checked off the list so I won’t be completely overwhelmed at the very end of the deadline. They’re smart but I would still rather go to sleep early. Poo to both of you for being right.

8. Warm socks. My feet are cold. My socks are very warm. That’s a pretty big joy for me because when my feet are cold, the rest of my body feels horrid. So yay for socks.

9. A job. This one was way hard. As much as mine is making me irritable and stressed right now, I suppose I have to be thankful to have it. Things could be a lot worse than they are for us right now and from a logical perspective, I do know that.

10. A lovely day yesterday with Kidzilla, the Fab Hub, and my Mom. We took a lovely little day trip for a fall/Halloween outing and it was really a lovely day. Even in the midst of all the nonsense, sometimes you just have to get out of Dodge, as they say, and leave it all behind for a while.

11. OK, a bonus. Daylight Savings Time. We get an extra hour this weekend. No-brainer.

Hope your week and weekend has been good. Here’s hoping the week ahead is better for me than the one behind.

What are you thankful for this week?

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