Better Day Today

I have tried in vain for about two hours to write something.

I have started about nine different times.  And deleted everything just as many.  I have pulled old half ideas with the hope of making them new full ideas.  And sent them back to the drafts folder.

Anyone who knows me knows that I am rarely at a loss for words.  And I don’t think that this is really a loss for words today as much as it is a loss of focus.  Tonight, I don’t seem to be able to pull any of my thoughts together into a coherent idea.

I feel scattered.  It happens.

Of course, it could be that I spent so much of my energy today focusing on having a better day today than yesterday.  Fab Hub and I tell Zilla that whenever she has a bad day…”better day tomorrow,” we say.  We all said it last night.  And for all three of us, today honestly has been a much better day than yesterday.  Maybe sometimes that just takes a lot of energy, focus, strength, and determination.

Whatever works, right?

I also unexpectedly found myself in a position to support a colleague experiencing some challenges in life right now.  We sat together for a little while today, talked a bit, and propped each other up, in a manner of speaking.  Sometimes taking care of people earns priority over taking care of business.

That was bolstering at the same time that it was somewhat draining.  Not a bad drain…but an emotional drain nonetheless.  But I think we both made it through the rest of the day better for it – a little more calm, a little more pleasant, and a little more at peace.

But tired.

And so since I am now completely tapped, as is evidenced by my overuse of trite cliché, it is time for sleep.